.. A New Beginning ..

Today's meeting was really awesome.  Once again, so blessed & ministered by the Word.  Indeed the Word is life, and the Word gives life.  :)

I came home, really desiring for more of His presence.  It has been a while, since the most challenging moment of our lives took place.  Mum is still away at Grandma's house..  I really miss seeing her around.  I hope she will come home soon..

It has been 6 months of full time ministry.  Things were going really great.  We sold the property, that was really the highlight of our lives.  It means clearing the debts that we have, & living a debt free life.  For me, it's definitely a relief to clear the study loan debt I had incurred for the last 2 years.

Yet, deep on the inside, I was actually a little uneasy...  because I thought, things can't really be that "smooth"?  Was it a wrong thought that I had, that I shouldn't even think about it at all?...

Because, really.  Right at the next moment, woke up the next morning.  Heard of the incident that had happened.  Mum left home.

I felt everything just happened too sudden.  Out of nowhere, and it happened.

It was really a hit to all of us.  Family is very important, and indeed when the devil strikes, he always strikes at the thing that is most dearest & precious to us.

It was at this point of my full-time ministry, I got really frustrated at a couple of times.  There were still counseling cases going around...  and my personal CG, which I just took over, wasn't going very smooth for me.  Sometimes, thoughts like, I am already at my weakest, and I still need to talk to/counsel people etc etc.

But.  I checked my heart.  I guessed it was wrong.  Perhaps for the last 6 months, I have been relying a lot on my own strength.  I was reminded, I cannot do it like this anymore...

I really desire a breakthrough for my full-time ministry for God.

Today.  It shall be a fresh new beginning for me.  I have a new vision.  And I desire for really great things to happen in the zone.

The more the devil wants to hit at us, the more we have to bounce back.

The more he wants to depress us, the more we will smile.

The more he wants to discourage us over the things that are most precious to us, the more we will not be moved.  Our faith & trust is in the GOOD GOD that we are serving.

God.  Give me the kind of joy, and faith, and peace, and energy that I always desire to have.

Touching lives.  Impacting lives.  Reaching out to lives.  I want to do all these.

6 months.  A good check for me.  I thought I was alright...  But today I am reminded, not by might, nor by power, but it's by the Spirit of God.

I commit my parents into His hands.  No matter what the outcome will be, one thing for sure.  I don't want to allow it to affect what I can do for Him.  There is so much, so much more that I can do & plan...

This Sunday, we are going to take a family portrait.  I pray that we can talk to mum, and ask her to come home.  My prayer is still that, our parents can reconcile...

But whatever it is, I will CHOOSE to rejoice.

A new beginning.  A new day.  Let me start afresh all over again.

Loving God, loving people.  Let this passion be renewed.....