Wednesday, February 21, 2007

.. new level of exposure ..

wow, been a LOOOOOONG while since i last updated my blog!

been a good CNY. thank God for all the financial blessings once again... maybe not much more time left to collect ang pows le. hee... hint hint... well well.. may there be a miracle coming to pass this year. haha?? :P

well, just tgt of really blogging my thoughts about my marketplace mandate. really another level of exposure that i felt God is bringing me through... it's as if my eyes are "opened" to see certain things that i had never seen before. now, it's not just about being an ordinary employee of Citibank, but, it's about being a part of the managerial level, over-seeing a team of young employees, whom are really a tough group of people to work with. maybe not all, but, a few can already make earth a living hell, in a sense.. yes, it's that bad. :(

i still remembered the days where i sided my team-mates, had an "email confrontation" with my boss. i thought she was unreasonable, but, it proved that experience does count. i learnt what i should. changed for the better. in a way, a line must be drawn, else, it's tough to get things done. i felt i had matured more, as i'm being exposed to experiences like these..

there were days that i really, really "complained" to Shi Fu... how much longer do i have to go through these.. can i jump to another place... but guess things like that must always seek the direction from God. as of now, God says no. i wondered why God put me through all these.. but, i think, the light is getting brighter...

at the end of the day, God is still good, He is still the BEST. :)

well well, i shall persevere. got to "thrash" things out with a team-mate soon as she seems to have some mis-understanding over me. aiyo. i'm such a nice person, why would there be people whom thought otherwise? my spirit was really dampened last week when my team-mate displayed a stinky attitude before me. really not used to such mis-communication. but i guess, that's the price to pay if we really want to be the light of the world & the salt of the earth.

i'm leaning on the Lord to show me, & teach me more on what i should learn, so that i can really go to a level of influence. that's my desire. the cultural & marketplace mandate that God has in stored for us.

i shall be strong. not giving up. for the day of breakthrough will definitely come.

God is good. All the time.